A Prophetic Word on Hurricane Sandy, America’s Major (Election) Disaster!

Update October 31, 2012:

The news today says that the damage caused by Sandy is yet incalculable. The assessments so far, however, obviously describe a truly devastating aftermath of the super storm; a major disaster as the Lord calls it.

http://news.yahoo.com/sandys-death-toll-climbs-millions-without-power-155442547–finance.html

I amended the title of this article as the Holy Spirit led to emphasize the nature of this catastrophe. The Lord gave me the message that ‘a major disaster is coming to the nation’ of America about two weeks before the event took place to get the message across the people in the land that the warnings of the coming judgment are not a joke. God is seriously warning everyone to prepare while there is time; and time is running short. Heed the warnings of your prophets and watchmen. I am not an American and have never set foot in the land but the Lord chose me to see and hear what’s coming to your nation to be a confirming witness to what the true prophets and watchmen of America say about the future of the  nation as God has shown them.

God does not delight in death. He loves us, people created in His image. But He does not tolerate wickedness for He is a Holy God. He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to redeem us from the power of sin and eternal damnation in hell. Receive the Lord Jesus Christ and turn from your sins for the Lord will keep safe His own to eternal life.

This disaster that has befallen America is a call to repentance, a call to turn away from the path of wickedness. If you have been spared from this calamity it is because God is giving you a chance to come to Him. Heed His call. He loves you and does not want you to perish!

Ezekiel 18:30-32

“Therefore, house of Israel, I will judge each of you according to his ways,” says Adonai Elohim. ” Repent, and turn yourselves away from all your transgressions, so that they will not be a stumbling block that brings guilt upon you. Throw far away from yourselves all your crimes that you committed, and make yourselves a new heart and a new spirit; for why should you die, house of Israel? I take no pleasure in death of anyone who dies,” says Adonai Elohim, “so turn yourselves around, and live!”

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I began writing this article yesterday with a question mark instead of the exclamation point at the end of the title. As I was writing, I wondered if the Lord would give a nudge if this is indeed the major disaster He said was coming to America. Recall that in my article “America, the Church and the 2012 Presidential Election” I mentioned a word I received from the Lord after praying about the coming election. Quoted from the article, here’s what I said:

“On Oct. 13, I again prayed for America and the coming election, asking the Lord more questions. As I was going to sleep I heard, ‘A major disaster is coming to the nation.'”

I went to sleep with that message and wondered what could the major disaster be that might have something to do with the election? Well, anything can happen on America’s most likely last significant election before her fall. Anything is possible to keep Obama in power. There is also the tendency of the long anticipated Israeli strike on the Iranian nukes which has been dubbed as a possible “October Surprise” that will certainly affect America’s election should the attack happen. But with Hurricane Sandy’s appearance in the scene, this is more likely what the Lord whispered to me as the “major disaster” coming to the nation this election season, for unlike the Israel-Iran nuclear issue, this monstrous storm directly hits and affects the land.

I decided to put off the article and prayed last night. This morning the Lord woke me up from my deep sleep around 6:00 a.m. with the chorus of the American song, “God Bless America.” Without opening my eyes I asked, “Why again, Lord? Why am I hearing this song again?” It’s been a while since the last time I heard the song in my spirit.

As I kept hearing the song, I asked again, “Why, God, do you long to bless America again?” Then came the resounding “No. What you are actually hearing is ‘God blessed America.'” Immediately I got up and got my notepad and pen as I knew that the Lord was going to say more.

I wrote as I heard:

“America was once richly blessed, but my hand of blessing has long been lifted up; and now she’s reaping curses upon curses of her own doing. She did the right thing first but she turned away from my path and followed the path of wickedness and waywardness. She’s walking the path to destruction.”

I asked the Lord to confirm the message with His word. I randomly opened my Bible and alas! I opened to the same verses He gave me on October 22 which He said then that that was what happened to America. Here is the word:

Matthew 13: 24-30

Yeshua put before them another parable.”The Kingdom of Heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field; but while people were sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, then went away. When the wheat sprouted and formed heads of grain, the weeds also appeared. The owner’s servants came to him and said, ‘Sir didn’t you sow good seed in your field? Where have the weeds come from?’ He answered, ‘An enemy has done this.’ The servants asked him, ‘Then do you want us to go and pull them up?’ But He said, ‘No,  because you might uproot some of the root at the same time. Let them both grow together until the harvest; and at harvest-time I will tell the reapers to collect the weeds first and tie them in bundles to be burned, but to gather the wheat into my barn.'”

America was planted with both good and bad seed, the seed of Christianity/Godliness and the seed of the occult. Her harvest-time is at hand; the wicked will be gathered in bundles to be burned and the righteous will be kept for the Lord.

As I prayed and worshiped the Lord, my attention was brought back to the hurricane “Sandy.” I asked Him if this is the major disaster He was talking about on October 13. Then the Lord gave me the following message which I wrote in my notepad:

“The Lord is sending the hurricane to show that the presidential election is nothing… It will not alter the fate of the nation no matter which man wins. Judgment will come for neither of these men will carry out His will and desire; they will make their own policies and will not heed Him. They will lead America further down the cliff. Obama betrayed Israel and Romney will not do much to change it. The damage to His nation and people is done with Obama.

The hurricane is coming to demonstrate His indignation. It is coming this election season to show to America and the world His displeasure over the way the leaders govern – they govern erroneously. They instigated to and removed God out of their midst; now they are telling everyone including the young ones to not use His name in their prayers. They are blocking the youth who are advocating Him and His laws, banning them from schools and universities if they show forth their faith in Yeshua.

But many people will not see this hurricane as the Lord’s judgment. They will continue with their futile thinking that this is all but natural for they are blind. They have been so blinded by the Prince of the Air, the devil. They will shun anyone saying that this is His act for they do not believe in Him anymore. But there are those who will listen; those who will pay attention to what is going on and they will look up to Him. He will speak to them who fear YHVH because of this calamity. He will draw them to Himself and save them and heal them.

Matthew 13: 14-16

“That is, in them is fulfilled the prophecy of Yeshayahu (Isaiah) which says,

‘You will keep on hearing but never understand, and keep on seeing but never perceive, because the heart of these people has become dull – with their ears they barely hear, and their eyes they have closed, so as not to see with their eyes, hear with their ears, understand with their heart and do t’shuvah (repent), so that I could heal them.’

But you, how blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears, because they hear!”

The latest headline on “Sandy” as of this writing, indeed describes a major disaster.

Megastorm Could Wreak Havoc Across 800 Miles of US

http://abcnews.go.com/US/wireStory/us-superstorm-threat-launches-mass-evacuations-17581439#.UI4ZBGfPzzo

Here’s an excerpt from the above news:

“Hurricane Sandy was headed north from the Caribbean, where it left nearly five dozen dead, to meet a winter storm and a cold front, plus high tides from a full moon, and experts said the rare hybrid storm that results will cause havoc over 800 miles from the East Coast to the Great Lakes.”

Yesterday’s news on yahoo named ‘Sandy’ the ‘October Surprise:’ http://news.yahoo.com/hurricane-sandy-october-election-surprise-160031906.html

Here’s the excerpt:

“As Hurricane Sandy heads toward land on the East Coast, the storm and its aftermath could lend an interesting twist to the upcoming general election–call it the “October surprise”–as some power outages could last into Election Day.

Hurricane Sandy’s track is projected to directly affect two swing states in the election—Pennsylvania and Virginia—with Ohio also in the storm’s path inward.

The storm will arrive about a week before Election Day, and widespread, long-term power outages are a possibility, based on recent trends and the severity of the storm.”

This is another wake up call for America and the world. Again, God cannot be mocked. He is sovereign. He is righteous and just. He reigns and rules the universe.

Psalm 2:10-12

Therefore, kings be wise; be warned you judges of the earth. Serve Adonai with fear; rejoice but with trembling. Kiss the Son, lest He be angry, and you perish along the way, when suddenly His anger blazes. How blessed are all who take refuge in Him.

Receive the Lord Jesus in your heart today. In Him alone is true security!

Love in Christ,

Cynthia

Warning, warning, warning! A warning for the Church! I will Remove Your Lampstand!

The title of this article is exactly the very stern warning message I heard around 12:00 noon today when I tried to nap after being awake from around 3:00 a.m. The message got my full attention that I decided to just not sleep at all. This message is found in the Book of Revelation.

Revelation 2:5

Therefore, remember where you were before you fell, turn from this sin, and do what you used to do before. Otherwise, I will come to you and remove your menorah (lampstand) from its place – if you don’t turn away from your sin!

The Menorah

Since I published the previous article which focused on the lukewarm Church of Laodicea, the Lord continued to show and gave me words about the Church’s spiritual condition.

Earlier today, around 5:30 in the morning, I also attempted to nap after preparing for the children’s needs for school but while drowsing half asleep on the sofa I heard, “Persist on your Ezequiel calling;”  and while pondering what that meant I heard “… and Habakkuk too!” As I was asking what He really meant, I saw a man and a boy in a lewd scene. It was very lewd that I don’t want to describe what I really saw. I knew that the man is a professed Christian.

Persist is a very strong word. Google defines it as “Continue firmly or obstinately in an opinion or a course of action in spite of difficulty, opposition, or failure.”

Merriam Webster Online Dictionary says “to go on resolutely or stubbornly in spite of opposition, importunity, or warning; to be insistent in the repetition or pressing of an utterance (as a question or an opinion).”

In the context of the vision, what was impressed to me as to the Ezequiel calling is this:

Ezequiel 33:7

Likewise you, human being – I have appointed you as watchman for the house of Israel. Therefore, when you hear the word from my mouth, warn them for me. When I tell the wicked person, ‘Wicked person, you will certainly die’; and you fail to speak and warn the wicked person to leave his way; then that wicked person will die guilty; and I will hold you repsonsible for his death. On the other hand, if you warn the wicked person to turn from his way, and he doesn’t turn from his way; then he will still die guilty, but you will have saved your own life.

As to the Habakkuk calling, this is what the Holy Spirit impressed to me:

Habakkuk 2: 1-3

I will stand at my watchpost; I will station myself on the rampart. I will look to see what God will say through me and what I will answer when I am reproved.

Then Adonai answered me; He said, “Write down the vision clearly on tablets, so that even a runner can read it. For the vision is meant for its appointed time; it speaks of the end and it does not lie. It may take a while, but wait for it; it will surely come, it will not delay.

So then I must continue to watch, write and warn as the Lord leads!

Going back to the vision of the man and the boy, the Lord just showed me one concrete example of the message He gave me early in the morning yesterday while I was still in bed. He said referring to the Church, “I am exposing your shame.”

This message was similarly spoken by the Lord through the Prophet Jeremiah regarding Judah and Jerusalem, when the people continued in their sins. In Jeremiah 13: 10 the Lord says: “I will ruin this evil people, who refuse to hear my words and live according to their own stubborn inclinations, who go after other gods to serve and worship them.”

In verse 26, the Lord declared: “I myself will lift your skirts above your face, and your privates will be exposed.”

The Lord also uttered the message through Prophet Isaiah regarding Babylon.

Isaiah 47:1-3

“Come down, and sit in the dust, you virgin daughter of Bavel! Sit on the ground, not on a throne, daughter of the Kasdim! No longer are you to be called dainty and delicate. Take the millstones and grind meal; take off your veil, strip off your skirt, uncover your legs, wade through the streams. Your private parts will be exposed; yes, your shame will be seen. I am going to take vengeance, and no one will stand in my way.”

The night before I heard the word of the Lord, I prayed and asked Him for insight to the question of one reader of this blog who emailed me this:

“I have been reading your blog for a while, and I have a question. I have prayed for about 30 years for the United States. I have felt that our country has deserved judgement because of abortion, but instead, God has withheld His hand for a long time. I believe that the increase in homosexuality is a sign from God that He has been in the process of turning away from a nation due to its sins. Stating that what God says is evil is ‘good’ is also a sign of our sinful condition. My question is in regards to the cover ups of child molestations that have occurred in various institutions, including evangelical Bible believing churches. It seems to me that this particular evil is being uncovered everywhere. When this occurs in the church, the harm to children is magnified, including their relationship with Jesus. Is it right to take churches to court when they have participated in covering up child molestations by members? Why would God allow little children to be molested and raped by Christians? Can a person be a Christian and commit such a detestable act?”

As I heard that message, I knew that the Lord was referring to this particular question raised by this sister. So, the Lord will certainly expose the immoral acts of the professing Christians and churches such as shown in the vision mentioned above. If they need to be dragged in court, then the Lord will drag them to court.

Every immoral act and immoral relationship within the ‘church’ will be exposed. The Lord is in the process of shaking the so-called “Christian Church” violently to expose her immorality. Judgment on the nation begins in the household of God.

As I continued praying about it, the Lord further said that these people (so-called Christians) have no right associating themselves with God’s holy name and any reference to Him like “Christian.” It is utter misuse of His name which God condemns as using His name in vain.

For those who molest and abuse children and cause them to sin, remember the word of the Lord:

Mark 9:42

Whoever ensnares one of these little ones who trust me – it would be better for him to have a millstone hung around his neck and be thrown in the sea.

Matthew 18:5-7

Whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me; and whoever ensnares one of these little ones who trust me, it would be better for him to have a millstone hung around his neck and be drowned in the open sea! Woe to the world because of snares! For there must be snares, but woe to the person who sets the snare!

Again, to the lukewarm Church of Laodicea, repent of your sins! The Lord Yeshua is saying:

“My advice to you is to buy from me gold refined by fire, so that you may be rich; and white clothing, so that you may be dressed and not have to be ashamed of your nakedness.; an eyesalve to rub on your eyes so that you may see. As for me, I rebuke and discipline everyone I love; so exert yourselves and turn from your sins! Here I am, standing at the door knocking…” Rev. 3:18-20

Repent lest Yahweh will remove your lampstand!

Love in King Yeshua,

Cynthia

America, the Church and the 2012 Presidential Election

1 Peter 4:17-18 (CJB)

For the time has come for the judgment to begin. It begins with the Household of God; and if it starts with us, what will the outcome be for those who are disobeying God’s Good News?-

If the righteous is barely delivered, where will the ungodly and sinful end up?

For the past days the Lord laid in me the burden to write about the upcoming Presidential Election but the enemy has been attacking me and has kept me from doing it. But the Father is always faithful. He came to my rescue and gave clarity to the thoughts which I could hardly dicipher because of the attacks. With my dream yesterday and after feeding on His Word and praying, the Lord cleared my thoughts and organized the messages He gave me during the past two or more weeks.

I am going to share the words not in a chronological order but in a manner that would render the full meaning of the entire message that God has placed in my heart; for when the Lord gives me something, He usually does it one or two messages or visions at a time that the meaning is not fully revealed until after much prayer.

Let me start from the vision and words I heard more than a month ago. During prayer I heard ‘Washington DC’ followed by a vision of Mitt Romney and the phrase, “… and they voted.” So I thought that Romney would be America’s next president but didn’t really dwell on it. However, as the election day is fast approaching I began to seriously seek the Lord if indeed Romney would win, and if so, how would his leadership impact America?

On the evening of October 11, I prayed again, asking the same question as I wanted to be sure if Romney would be America’s next president. My concern for the result of the election is based on two things: Abortion and Israel. I asked the Lord to let Romney win if truly under him, abortion would be minimized if not totally abolished, and Israel would continue to have America on her side. In this case, I wondered if under him the Lord would relent from his indignation over the nation. But instead of giving me a direct answer the Lord said that neither Obama nor Romney has a heart for Him; the values of both men are not founded on His Word.

Still I was persistent, so I asked, “If both men are basically the same, who then must the Christians vote for?” It seems that God has not given America any choice. I brought this thought to sleep hoping that He would give me a clear answer. As I went to sleep and towards morning I was awakened to hear and see “Lukewarm! Lukewarm!”

Of course “lukewarm” is the description that the Lord gives the Laodicean Church in the book of Revelation which is also descriptive of most Christian churches worldwide. But I wondered if He is specifically referring to the Church in America since my prayer the night before was about the nation and the coming election, so I asked, “Who is lukewarm, Lord?”

With eyes still closed I persisted on asking who He is referring to as lukewarm. Then the Lord showed me that countless so-called Christians in America are lukewarm. I saw mega buildings of mega-churches but the Lord said that there is only a handful among those people whose hearts are truly His. The apostasy is so great that these people’s worship of Him is nothing but a masquerade. They have embraced religion to suit their desire, having a form of godliness but truly denying the power of the cross. Jesus Christ is left out of the lives of most of these people. As they come together every Sunday they become a large group of Christ-less Christians. When examined up close, so many people in these denominational churches either don’t really have a personal relationship with the Lord, or that they accept Him only for what they want to make of Him and not as who He really is that the Bible speaks about –  Messiah, Lord and King over their lives.

As I was seeing them in my mind, the words I received some days earlier came into focus. I was quickened from a nap to hear, “The antichrist is in your midst;”  then, “My heart conceives not the people of darkness;” and another message, “He constantly leads them for He is the Shepherd to His people.”

On Oct. 13, I again prayed for America and the coming election, asking the Lord more questions. As I was going to sleep I heard, “A major disaster is coming to the nation.” Then a while later I saw my mother and heard, “She’s doing every little thing she can to help the nation.” I believe that my mother in this vision simply represented the True Church.

Yesterday I went into deep prayer and asked the Lord to show to me exactly what He was saying in all those messages. The following were what I wrote fast in my notepad as the Lord gave the essence of all those words:

“Obama and Romney are in the same boat for their hearts do not follow the Father’s heart. If then Romney wins, the reforms he brings in as America’s president will be based on human principles done with human efforts and by human standards and will neither have lasting impact nor change the spiritual condition of the nation.

America’s fate and spiritual condition actually depend largely on the Church, not the president; but the Church is sadly, sleeping. The Church is lukewarm and it is for this foremost reason that America will be shaken to the core.

In so many instances the so-called Christian Church helped and advocated immoral and un-Biblical issues like abortion and homosexuality. She adapted the ways of the world and became a major player in advancing wickedness instead of beaming its light unto the world.

The people who supposedly call themselves Christians have turned away from worshiping God and worship “self” instead. The Church leaders are teaching lies, keeping the flock in bondage to them and causing them to follow blindly. Apostasy in the Church is so great that the believers’ faith is weakened, making them easy prey to false doctrines and teachings that have led many to spiritual demise. Examples of these doctrines are the merging of Christianity and Islam into the new belief system of the “Chrislam;” and the not- so-new “Replacement Theology” which teaches that the Christian Church is the new Israel because God has rejected the physical Israel and the blood descendants of Abraham; and not to mention also that the Gospel is diluted with New Age teachings. Hardly repentance and righteous living are preached.

But in the midst of the apostasy, however, is a handful faithful ones. The faithful sons and daughters representing the True Church of God in America’s midst are the ones referred to by the Lord in this messages: “She’s doing every little thing she can to help the nation,” and, “He constantly leads them for He is the Shepherd to His people.””

As the Lord gave those words about the Church, I remembered the articles delivered to my inbox from Prophecy News Watch (with links to the original sources):

http://www.prophecynewswatch.com/2012/October12/124.html http://www.jpost.com/JewishWorld/JewishNews/Article.aspx?id=287238

http://www.prophecynewswatch.com/2012/October16/165.html http://frontpagemag.com/2012/mark-d-tooley/leftist-christians-rally-against-the-jewish-state/

And here’s the latest apostasy report:

http://www.prophecynewswatch.com/2012/October18/184.html http://www.christianpost.com/news/poll-pcusa-members-increasingly-favoring-same-sex-marriage-82735/

This morning in my prayer and Bible reading, the Lord brought again the “Lukewarm Church” and the “True Church” to my attention so I opened my Bible to the Book of Revelation. Hear the message of the Lord to the Laodicean Church:

Revelation 3: 14-21 (CJB)

“To the angel of the Messianic Community in Laodicea, write: ‘Here is the message from the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the Ruler of God’s creation:

“I know what you are doing: you are neither cold nor hot. How I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm, neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of my mouth! For you keep saying, ‘I am rich, I have gotten rich. I don’t need a thing!’ You don’t know that you are the one who is wretched, pitiable, poor, blind and naked! My advice to you is to by from me gold refined by fire, so that you may be rich; and white clothing, so that you may be dressed and not have to be ashamed of your nakedness; and eyesalve to rub on your eyes, so that you may see. As for me, I rebuke and discipline everyone I love; so exert yourselves, and turn from your sins! Here, I am standing at the door, knocking. If someone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he will eat with me. I will let him who wins the victory sit with me on my throne, just as I myself won the victory and sat down with my Father on His throne. Those who have ears, let them hear what the Spirit is saying to the Messianic Community.'””

To the True Church, here is the word of the Lord:

Revelation 3: 7-13 (CJB)

“To  the angel of the Messianic Community in Philadelphia, write: ‘Here is the message of HaKadosh, the True One, the one who has the key of David, who, if he opens something, no one else can shut, and if he closes something, no one else can open it! “I know what you are doing. Look, I have put in front of you an open door, and no one can shut it. I know that you have but little power, yet you have obeyed my message and have not disowned me. Here, I will give you some from the synagogue of the Adversary, those who call themselves Jews but aren’t – on the contrary, they are lying – see, I will cause them to come to you and prostrate themselves at your feet, and they will know that I have loved you. Because you did obey my message about persevering, I will keep  you from the time of trial coming upon the whole world to put the people living on earth to the test. I am coming soon; hold on to what you have, so that no one will take away your crown. I will make him who wins the victory a pillar in the Temple of my God, and he will never leave it. Also I will write on him the name of my God, and the name of my God’s city, and my own new name. Those who have ears, let them hear what the Spirit is saying to the Messianic Communities.””

Which Church are you, brethren? Time is short, listen to the Spirit speaking to you. God is knocking at the door of the lukewarm Laodicean Church; if you belong to such, will you open the door and let Him in?

If you are in the True Church, keep up the good work, doing every little thing you can as you are called to do and press on!

Love in Yeshua HaMashiach,

Cynthia

Please read also:

http://nabiy4america.wordpress.com/2010/12/18/this-laodicean-age-a-profound-warning-for-an-unrepentant-spiritually-blind-america/

My Heart’s Cry

Deuteronomy 8:18, Thou shalt remember the Lord thy God, 1901 Bible card published by the Providence Lithograph Company (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

This article is different from all the rest I have written because this is not about anything that the Lord is showing me prophetically. This is about my heart’s desire, my daily burden- the burden to know my God and King more and more deeply; the burden to please only Him and to glorify Him regardless of anything; and the burden to be the best that I can be in Him and for Him, for the glory of His name!

I am writing this down to share what my heart is so preoccupied with every single day. I pray that everyone reading this will be blessed. I believe that every true child of God can say amen to what I am sharing here.

Another reason I bare my heart is to make it clear that what I write in this blog is from my heart as the Lord puts the burden and guides me so that only what the Father wants written shall be written; for I am not seeking praise from men but Him alone. Only the Father’s affirmation really matters.

From the time I open my eyes in the morning till the moment I sleep at night, nothing fills my thoughts more than the thoughts of Him. This is not to say I don’t move about normally for I am perfectly normal, doing my chores regularly, taking care of my children and interacting with all house members as any normal person does. But when I am not talking to anyone, not reading or writing my thoughts again rest on the Lord even while doing something with my hands. My heart often speaks to Him and longs for Him. My heart aches with longing for my God and Father. My heart is restless for my desire for more of Him is so deep. The thirst seems unquenchable that I always long to be alone with Him in prayer and worship.

The fear of the Lord is very real to me.  I fear that my heart isn’t pure for that would certainly obscure my vision of Him and block my ears from hearing Him; for according to the Lord, only those with pure heart will see God. I fear that my heart may deceive me as He said that “the heart is deceitful above all, who can understand it?”, thus, I always ask Him to examine my heart. I know that I cannot trust my heart/self so I yield to Him completely and always ask Him to remove anything and everything that He sees may separate me from Him.

I am not perfect and falter from time to time. But sin to me is such a horrible thing that I cannot live with it a minute longer. I do not hide anything from the Lord for I know that there is nothing I can hide from Him. The issues of my heart are ever before Him. My struggles are known to Him. I do not pretend to be alright when I am not. I simply cry out to Him when things look unfair.

I don’t want to be separated from my God. My everyday prayer unto the Lord is that He would draw me deep into His fullness. I know I cannot fully know Him for His infiniteness is beyond human wisdom but that doesn’t deter me from wanting to know Him as much as my finite nature can grasp. So my desire is to be soaked in Him, submerged deep into His heart; and if I should be lost, I want to be lost only in His presence so that when I turn to the right or to the left, I would still find myself in Him.

When I think of my life, where I am now and what I have accomplished so far, I know that I am nothing and have nothing to boast and brag about. I have no accomplishments to display to the world because I was not created for this world. I am not intellectually poor but I have not achieved success in the world’s definition of success for every time I was headed for success, I withdrew and backed down. The reason is one and the same – fear that success would lead me deep into the world and away from God.

This thing has puzzled some of those who have known me, especially my family. I have been misunderstood and many times I tried to give in just to fit in. But every time I gave in, no one would see my struggle and I suffered in silence. This was what happened when I backslid. While everybody thought I was doing well with my career, my inner person suffered deeply. When I gave up my career, people were wondering.

The Lord bound me in Him but this is the kind of bondage that I never want to be freed from. He created me for Him. Even when I was a child and before the Lord revealed Himself to me in a very personal way, I always had the feeling that I was going to serve God. That feeling I believe is the reason I grew up with such goal in mind so that nothing in this world could ever distract me; that despite the backsliding and wandering, the Lord still brought me back to where I should really be in Him and for Him.

Excellence in this world is not my forte; but excellence for my God and for His Kingdom is what I am crying out unto Him every single day. My one desire is my God.

My Prayer

Father, I come to you. Again and again I come to you because my heart is crying out for more of you. My spirit constantly groans.  Daily my soul hungers and thirsts with deep longing for you. A glimpse of you is more precious to me than anything in this world.

I love you, Lord, you know I truly do. I know it is you who makes me love you with such love that binds me with you.

My life cannot fully express what you have done to me. You have drawn me close and constantly draw me closer; and the closer you draw me the more I long for you.

As you have drawn me deep into your heart, nothing else matters to me. This world loses all its attraction as your glory enfolds me in all its brightness.

I will forever praise you and worship you, my God and King!

Psalm 139

This Psalm by David is one my favorite chapters in the Bible for it expresses the heart of one who is so caught up in the love of God and His awesome, infinite wisdom and omniscience.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalms%20139&version=KJV

139 O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.

² Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.

³ Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.

⁴ For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether.

⁵ Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.

⁷ Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?

⁸ If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.

⁹ If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;

¹⁰ Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.

¹¹ If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.

¹² Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.

¹³ For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.

¹⁴ I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

¹⁵ My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

¹⁶ Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

¹⁷ How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!

¹⁸ If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

¹⁹ Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.

²⁰ For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.

²¹ Do not I hate them, O Lord, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?

²² I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:

²⁴ And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

 

Much love in Yeshua,

Cynthia