A Message from the Lord: Rest and Recuperate!

The Lord is My Shepherd


I have been busy since after publishing the last article on March 18. After my son’s graduation on April 2, I was eager to resume writing especially about the dream I wanted to share, but it was even more impossible to do because the children are all home as the school year ended. The situation also affected much of my personal time with the Lord and so I struggled to concentrate on spiritual matters. As I sought God, He seemed quiet. I wanted Him to help me concentrate on writing the things I thought I had to. I sought for confirmation and inspiration to write again. After much prayer, confident that He heard me, I expected to receive what I was seeking about. Instead, just before I fell asleep on April 6, the Lord gave me this message, “R & R, His swift army.” Without opening my eyes I asked, “What does that mean, Lord?”

I went to sleep wondering what the R & R message means. I never heard of that. I said I would check it out in the morning but I forgot. Persistently I prayed again and still God didn’t give me anything until I remembered the above message two days later. I checked what could God be saying though I was not really sure what to find out and if I would find anything at all. To my surprise, however, there is indeed the term ‘R & R’ in the US military which means ‘Rest and Recuperation.’

R&R, military slang for rest and recuperation (or rest and relaxation), is a term used for the free time of a soldier in the US military or International UN staff serving in non-family duty stations. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R%26R_%28military%29

From the US Army site, this is what they say among others:


What is the Rest and Recuperation Leave Program?

The U.S. Central Command Commander established the Rest and Recuperation Leave Program in the Central Command Area of Operations to provide the opportunity for U.S. service members and Department of Defense civilians who are deployed in the combat theater for 1 year to take up to 15 days of leave during their deployment.

Why was the program instituted?

The program provides respite from the stresses associated with the combat mission and allows participants to focus on family and friends when they return home. This is seen as an investment in the well being of our forces that will improve mission performance.

The purpose is to provide relief to servicemen and servicewomen and DoD civilians and enable them to get away form the stress of the combat mission – if only for a little while. (all emphasis mine).

When I saw it I could only tell God, “Truly you are amazing, Father.” While I thought of going to work immediately as I could get the break, He was telling me to rest and recuperate. That morning before I remembered to check on the message after receiving no confirmation and inspiration to write, I already decided to just relax in Him, read the Word, pray consistently and wait patiently. And I did just that especially after seeing the meaning of the message. So for those who are wondering where I am, this is the reason for my silence.

The Lord gave this message not only for me, but also for His army. This is for His people, His spiritual army. I was not only seeking for confirmation and inspiration to write on my dream but I was also asking Him for further revelation as to what happens next after last month’s events. I could see that people are likewise seeking as I often see the search terms which lead many to this blog. We are curious, eager to know what the next big event is, never wanting to miss anything, never wanting to be taken by surprise. But our faithful Father knows we need more than just knowing what comes next and when for He has already given us so many revelations. We know where the world is headed for He has warned us in the Scriptures and through dreams and visions. He knows we need strength both physical and spiritual to face the perilous days ahead. So, this is what He wants His army to do: Take time to rest and recuperate. Let us refresh ourselves in Him. Dig His Word, take in the spiritual nutrients, drink of the Living Water and be strengthened. Above all, enjoy quiet moments with our Shepherd, reconnect with Him heart to heart. He wants our precious time, our fellowship.

Love in Yeshua,




My Heart’s Cry

English: Deuteronomy 8:18, Thou shalt remember...

Deuteronomy 8:18, Thou shalt remember the Lord thy God, 1901 Bible card published by the Providence Lithograph Company (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

This article is different from all the rest I have written because this is not about anything that the Lord is showing me prophetically. This is about my heart’s desire, my daily burden- the burden to know my God and King more and more deeply; the burden to please only Him and to glorify Him regardless of anything; and the burden to be the best that I can be in Him and for Him, for the glory of His name!

I am writing this down to share what my heart is so preoccupied with every single day. I pray that everyone reading this will be blessed. I believe that every true child of God can say amen to what I am sharing here.

Another reason I bare my heart is to make it clear that what I write in this blog is from my heart as the Lord puts the burden and guides me so that only what the Father wants written shall be written; for I am not seeking praise from men but Him alone. Only the Father’s affirmation really matters.

From the time I open my eyes in the morning till the moment I sleep at night, nothing fills my thoughts more than the thoughts of Him. This is not to say I don’t move about normally for I am perfectly normal, doing my chores regularly, taking care of my children and interacting with all house members as any normal person does. But when I am not talking to anyone, not reading or writing my thoughts again rest on the Lord even while doing something with my hands. My heart often speaks to Him and longs for Him. My heart aches with longing for my God and Father. My heart is restless for my desire for more of Him is so deep. The thirst seems unquenchable that I always long to be alone with Him in prayer and worship.

The fear of the Lord is very real to me.  I fear that my heart isn’t pure for that would certainly obscure my vision of Him and block my ears from hearing Him; for according to the Lord, only those with pure heart will see God. I fear that my heart may deceive me as He said that “the heart is deceitful above all, who can understand it?”, thus, I always ask Him to examine my heart. I know that I cannot trust my heart/self so I yield to Him completely and always ask Him to remove anything and everything that He sees may separate me from Him.

I am not perfect and falter from time to time. But sin to me is such a horrible thing that I cannot live with it a minute longer. I do not hide anything from the Lord for I know that there is nothing I can hide from Him. The issues of my heart are ever before Him. My struggles are known to Him. I do not pretend to be alright when I am not. I simply cry out to Him when things look unfair.

I don’t want to be separated from my God. My everyday prayer unto the Lord is that He would draw me deep into His fullness. I know I cannot fully know Him for His infiniteness is beyond human wisdom but that doesn’t deter me from wanting to know Him as much as my finite nature can grasp. So my desire is to be soaked in Him, submerged deep into His heart; and if I should be lost, I want to be lost only in His presence so that when I turn to the right or to the left, I would still find myself in Him.

When I think of my life, where I am now and what I have accomplished so far, I know that I am nothing and have nothing to boast and brag about. I have no accomplishments to display to the world because I was not created for this world. I am not intellectually poor but I have not achieved success in the world’s definition of success for every time I was headed for success, I withdrew and backed down. The reason is one and the same – fear that success would lead me deep into the world and away from God.

This thing has puzzled some of those who have known me, especially my family. I have been misunderstood and many times I tried to give in just to fit in. But every time I gave in, no one would see my struggle and I suffered in silence. This was what happened when I backslid. While everybody thought I was doing well with my career, my inner person suffered deeply. When I gave up my career, people were wondering.

The Lord bound me in Him but this is the kind of bondage that I never want to be freed from. He created me for Him. Even when I was a child and before the Lord revealed Himself to me in a very personal way, I always had the feeling that I was going to serve God. That feeling I believe is the reason I grew up with such goal in mind so that nothing in this world could ever distract me; that despite the backsliding and wandering, the Lord still brought me back to where I should really be in Him and for Him.

Excellence in this world is not my forte; but excellence for my God and for His Kingdom is what I am crying out unto Him every single day. My one desire is my God.

My Prayer

Father, I come to you. Again and again I come to you because my heart is crying out for more of you. My spirit constantly groans.  Daily my soul hungers and thirsts with deep longing for you. A glimpse of you is more precious to me than anything in this world.

I love you, Lord, you know I truly do. I know it is you who makes me love you with such love that binds me with you.

My life cannot fully express what you have done to me. You have drawn me close and constantly draw me closer; and the closer you draw me the more I long for you.

As you have drawn me deep into your heart, nothing else matters to me. This world loses all its attraction as your glory enfolds me in all its brightness.

I will forever praise you and worship you, my God and King!

Psalm 139

This Psalm by David is one my favorite chapters in the Bible for it expresses the heart of one who is so caught up in the love of God and His awesome, infinite wisdom and omniscience.


139 O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.

Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.

Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether.

Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.

Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?

If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.

If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;

10 Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.

11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.

12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.

13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.

14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!

18 If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.

20 For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.

21 Do not I hate them, O Lord, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?

22 I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:

24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.


Much love in Yeshua,


Abortion as I See It

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This is am image of a fetus about to be vacuumed out of the uterus in an abortion. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

As a servant, it is imperative that I do what my Master orders me to do. As an intercessor, I follow what the Lord wants me to pray about. As a watchman, I cannot choose what the Spirit wants to show me; and as one who always wants to know the Father’s heart, I must bear whatever He imparts to me, whether it makes me rejoice or weep with Him. I say this because for the past weeks since May 30, the Lord has not shown me anything but America and Abortion. I know that this is the third article in a row which I talk about abortion. What can I do if this is what He lets me do? Yes, I asked the Lord, why again? Are the two articles not strong enough to emphasize the horrors of abortion? How many times more do I have to shout against it?

This morning as I was praying for my personal needs and my family, suddenly, the Lord supplied the words on my lips which were completely out of context. In the middle of my praying, I blurted out: “They are taking piece by piece the baby out of her mother’s womb! I stopped immediately as I was shocked at what I said. Again my thoughts went back to abortion and I cried as it dawned on me that yesterday after another horrible vision, the Lord strongly impressed to me to write another message on abortion, to emphasize His pain and disgust over this unrestrained killing of children and to show what mothers lose when they abort their children from their wombs. All personal prayers ended as the Lord gripped my heart again with this issue that I decided to write immediately what He wanted me to write. So here I am again. Please read on.

After publishing the second abortion article just the other day, I thought I’d be relieved from it and the Lord would stir me back to Israel or to anything and anywhere else. I was expectant for new revelation of another issue as yesterday I felt a deep hunger for the Lord that I prayed before taking an afternoon nap. I asked Him if I love Him enough, or trust Him enough and believe Him enough. I asked Him to draw me deeper into Him and fill my every fiber of His presence because I felt parched. I prayed that He would show me what was in His heart at the moment. While in that spirit of prayer, I fell half asleep but very quickly was awakened because I saw again another horrible abortion scene. I saw two small limbs on forceps dropped in a bucket below; and the thought was that the abortionists covered the bucket where all the small parts were, to keep the mother from seeing the torn pieces of her baby and realize the shocking truth of what she just underwent. All drowsiness left me and my eyes were wide open as I cried over what I just witnessed. The Lord’s presence was so strong that I felt like He was in my room and telling me, “That is what’s happening right now in America. Thousands of little ones are being killed today in those clinics.”

I cried and asked, “Why, Lord, are they doing it? When will they stop killing their children and when will you stop them from doing it? Why do I keep seeing these things and what do you want me to do?”  I reasoned that I am not an American and I do not live there. Certainly I cannot go around in their streets and tell people to stop aborting their children.

The Lord gently and sadly responded to my many questions and arguments- that He just wants me to see what He sees and wants to share His grief with me. Oh, the thought makes me cry even as I am writing this.

Then without warning He said further that I was blessed that I am not an American living in America or my daughter would have faced the risk of being aborted as my pregnancy was a difficult one. It hit me that I cried when I imagined fighting for the life of my daughter from those lying abortionist-doctors who were so eager to tell a mother that the best option is to abort her baby as her very own life is at risk. My baby was born 4 weeks short of her full term. Despite my inability to move and speak as I was drugged, the physician’s word didn’t escape me when she said that my daughter’s breathing was irregular and she’s showing signs of distress that they had to do a CS and deliver her quickly. I prayed because I didn’t want to lose her. My baby was born. She was placed in an incubator only for a night. Despite her very tiny frame and being premature, she was well and strong. Her body was like a big frog but her face was so lovely that when the Lord spoke of abortion with my daughter in mind, I was horrified all the more. I could not imagine abortion being so personal to me.

The Lord gently pointed to me that the reason He reminded me of my daughter was not to terrify me but so that I can speak with conviction from a mother’s point.  I understood. The pain was so acute as the Lord placed me in such a position; to be in the shoes of those mothers who would lose their children in abortion. My eyes were welling up with tears as if indeed I was losing my own children as I saw in my mind the babies being ruthlessly pulled out from the life support of their mothers’ wombs, painfully struggling as their tiny frames are slowly severed to pieces. I imagined the loss of a treasure that many women don’t realize or refuse to acknowledge when they submit to killing their children from their womb. So, to all mothers and would be mothers, hear the message of the Lord:

It is such a loss for you to abort your children because they are actually your greatest treasures. Whatever challenges child-bearing and raising has cannot compare to the joy of holding one tiny precious angel in your hand, feeding him/her from your breast; watching him/her grow; listening to him/her mumble his/her first word. The love that children give to us mothers is pure and perfect if we just treasure them and love them with all our heart. Children love their mothers unconditionally like no other. Again, they are our most valuable treasures on earth. The psalmist aptly says:

“Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord. The fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of one’s youth (Psalm 127:3-4, NIV).”

I nicknamed my daughter Angel because when I saw her she looked to me like an angel. She fought for her life when she was in my womb and survived. At 10 months I almost lost her to dengue but the Lord was with her. She survived again and now she’s 7 years old, very sweet and very talented; above all, she knows that the Lord Yeshua loves her and she loves Him too. Young as she is, the Lord also gives her prophetic dreams.

Mothers and would-be mothers, please consider what your children can be if you let them live and grow. Consider what you lose when you have them aborted. You lose not only your treasures, but you also lose your worth as a woman. Worst, you lose your soul to the devil if you give in to his lie. If you had given in and aborted your baby, there is still hope if you repent and surrender your life to the Lord Yeshua HaMashiach (Jesus Christ). Know that every child is a treasure and a gift from the Lord. We were all once babies of our mothers. The Father knows each one of us even before we were formed. David put the words well in Psalm 139. Verses 13-16 are quoted from the Complete Jewish Bible:

Psalm 139:13-16

For you fashioned my inmost being;

you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I thank you because I am awesomely made,

wonderfully; your works are wonders–

I know this very well.

My bones were not hidden from you

when I was being made in secret,

intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes could see me as an embryo,

but in your book all my days were already written;

my days had been shaped

before any of them existed.

Love in Yeshua,