A Song in My Heart – Let Us Adore the Ever Living God!

After around two months of being sick, it is very refreshing and inspiring to wake up with a beautiful song in my heart that tells of the greatness of God. It is amazing how the Holy Spirit reminds me of a song I have not heard nor sung for years. Amazing still that He would bring back this song to confirm what I was feeling yesterday during the fellowship and prayer together with two wonderful sisters, one of whom I met recently.

Let us adore

the ever living God

and render praise unto Him

Who spread out the heavens

and established the earth

and whose glory

is revealed in the heavens above

and whose greatness

is manifest throughout all the earth.

He is our God.

There is none else!

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During my sickness when my limbs were weak that I could hardly walk and climb up stairs, my children told me to seek His Word for me. My daughter gave me his brother’s jar of Bible verses which he made as a project in school. They were as happy as I was because this is what I got:

Habakkuk 3:19

19 The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
    he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
    he enables me to tread on the heights.

Today, this message from Psalm 40 reflects what has been in my heart.

Psalm 40:1-3

I waited patiently for the Lord;
And He inclined to me,
And heard my cry.
He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
Out of the miry clay,
And set my feet upon a rock,
And established my steps.
He has put a new song in my mouth—
Praise to our God;
Many will see it and fear,
And will trust in the Lord.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

Love in Yeshua,

 

Cynthia

A Message from the Lord: Rest and Recuperate!

The Lord is My Shepherd

http://www.warnersallman.com/collection/images/the-lord-is-my-shepard/

I have been busy since after publishing the last article on March 18. After my son’s graduation on April 2, I was eager to resume writing especially about the dream I wanted to share, but it was even more impossible to do because the children are all home as the school year ended. The situation also affected much of my personal time with the Lord and so I struggled to concentrate on spiritual matters. As I sought God, He seemed quiet. I wanted Him to help me concentrate on writing the things I thought I had to. I sought for confirmation and inspiration to write again. After much prayer, confident that He heard me, I expected to receive what I was seeking about. Instead, just before I fell asleep on April 6, the Lord gave me this message, “R & R, His swift army.” Without opening my eyes I asked, “What does that mean, Lord?”

I went to sleep wondering what the R & R message means. I never heard of that. I said I would check it out in the morning but I forgot. Persistently I prayed again and still God didn’t give me anything until I remembered the above message two days later. I checked what could God be saying though I was not really sure what to find out and if I would find anything at all. To my surprise, however, there is indeed the term ‘R & R’ in the US military which means ‘Rest and Recuperation.’

R&R, military slang for rest and recuperation (or rest and relaxation), is a term used for the free time of a soldier in the US military or International UN staff serving in non-family duty stations. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R%26R_%28military%29

From the US Army site, this is what they say among others:

http://www.armyg1.army.mil/randr/faq.asp

What is the Rest and Recuperation Leave Program?

The U.S. Central Command Commander established the Rest and Recuperation Leave Program in the Central Command Area of Operations to provide the opportunity for U.S. service members and Department of Defense civilians who are deployed in the combat theater for 1 year to take up to 15 days of leave during their deployment.

Why was the program instituted?

The program provides respite from the stresses associated with the combat mission and allows participants to focus on family and friends when they return home. This is seen as an investment in the well being of our forces that will improve mission performance.

The purpose is to provide relief to servicemen and servicewomen and DoD civilians and enable them to get away form the stress of the combat mission – if only for a little while. (all emphasis mine).

When I saw it I could only tell God, “Truly you are amazing, Father.” While I thought of going to work immediately as I could get the break, He was telling me to rest and recuperate. That morning before I remembered to check on the message after receiving no confirmation and inspiration to write, I already decided to just relax in Him, read the Word, pray consistently and wait patiently. And I did just that especially after seeing the meaning of the message. So for those who are wondering where I am, this is the reason for my silence.

The Lord gave this message not only for me, but also for His army. This is for His people, His spiritual army. I was not only seeking for confirmation and inspiration to write on my dream but I was also asking Him for further revelation as to what happens next after last month’s events. I could see that people are likewise seeking as I often see the search terms which lead many to this blog. We are curious, eager to know what the next big event is, never wanting to miss anything, never wanting to be taken by surprise. But our faithful Father knows we need more than just knowing what comes next and when for He has already given us so many revelations. We know where the world is headed for He has warned us in the Scriptures and through dreams and visions. He knows we need strength both physical and spiritual to face the perilous days ahead. So, this is what He wants His army to do: Take time to rest and recuperate. Let us refresh ourselves in Him. Dig His Word, take in the spiritual nutrients, drink of the Living Water and be strengthened. Above all, enjoy quiet moments with our Shepherd, reconnect with Him heart to heart. He wants our precious time, our fellowship.

Love in Yeshua,

Cynthia

 

My Heart’s Cry

English: Deuteronomy 8:18, Thou shalt remember...

Deuteronomy 8:18, Thou shalt remember the Lord thy God, 1901 Bible card published by the Providence Lithograph Company (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

This article is different from all the rest I have written because this is not about anything that the Lord is showing me prophetically. This is about my heart’s desire, my daily burden- the burden to know my God and King more and more deeply; the burden to please only Him and to glorify Him regardless of anything; and the burden to be the best that I can be in Him and for Him, for the glory of His name!

I am writing this down to share what my heart is so preoccupied with every single day. I pray that everyone reading this will be blessed. I believe that every true child of God can say amen to what I am sharing here.

Another reason I bare my heart is to make it clear that what I write in this blog is from my heart as the Lord puts the burden and guides me so that only what the Father wants written shall be written; for I am not seeking praise from men but Him alone. Only the Father’s affirmation really matters.

From the time I open my eyes in the morning till the moment I sleep at night, nothing fills my thoughts more than the thoughts of Him. This is not to say I don’t move about normally for I am perfectly normal, doing my chores regularly, taking care of my children and interacting with all house members as any normal person does. But when I am not talking to anyone, not reading or writing my thoughts again rest on the Lord even while doing something with my hands. My heart often speaks to Him and longs for Him. My heart aches with longing for my God and Father. My heart is restless for my desire for more of Him is so deep. The thirst seems unquenchable that I always long to be alone with Him in prayer and worship.

The fear of the Lord is very real to me.  I fear that my heart isn’t pure for that would certainly obscure my vision of Him and block my ears from hearing Him; for according to the Lord, only those with pure heart will see God. I fear that my heart may deceive me as He said that “the heart is deceitful above all, who can understand it?”, thus, I always ask Him to examine my heart. I know that I cannot trust my heart/self so I yield to Him completely and always ask Him to remove anything and everything that He sees may separate me from Him.

I am not perfect and falter from time to time. But sin to me is such a horrible thing that I cannot live with it a minute longer. I do not hide anything from the Lord for I know that there is nothing I can hide from Him. The issues of my heart are ever before Him. My struggles are known to Him. I do not pretend to be alright when I am not. I simply cry out to Him when things look unfair.

I don’t want to be separated from my God. My everyday prayer unto the Lord is that He would draw me deep into His fullness. I know I cannot fully know Him for His infiniteness is beyond human wisdom but that doesn’t deter me from wanting to know Him as much as my finite nature can grasp. So my desire is to be soaked in Him, submerged deep into His heart; and if I should be lost, I want to be lost only in His presence so that when I turn to the right or to the left, I would still find myself in Him.

When I think of my life, where I am now and what I have accomplished so far, I know that I am nothing and have nothing to boast and brag about. I have no accomplishments to display to the world because I was not created for this world. I am not intellectually poor but I have not achieved success in the world’s definition of success for every time I was headed for success, I withdrew and backed down. The reason is one and the same – fear that success would lead me deep into the world and away from God.

This thing has puzzled some of those who have known me, especially my family. I have been misunderstood and many times I tried to give in just to fit in. But every time I gave in, no one would see my struggle and I suffered in silence. This was what happened when I backslid. While everybody thought I was doing well with my career, my inner person suffered deeply. When I gave up my career, people were wondering.

The Lord bound me in Him but this is the kind of bondage that I never want to be freed from. He created me for Him. Even when I was a child and before the Lord revealed Himself to me in a very personal way, I always had the feeling that I was going to serve God. That feeling I believe is the reason I grew up with such goal in mind so that nothing in this world could ever distract me; that despite the backsliding and wandering, the Lord still brought me back to where I should really be in Him and for Him.

Excellence in this world is not my forte; but excellence for my God and for His Kingdom is what I am crying out unto Him every single day. My one desire is my God.

My Prayer

Father, I come to you. Again and again I come to you because my heart is crying out for more of you. My spirit constantly groans.  Daily my soul hungers and thirsts with deep longing for you. A glimpse of you is more precious to me than anything in this world.

I love you, Lord, you know I truly do. I know it is you who makes me love you with such love that binds me with you.

My life cannot fully express what you have done to me. You have drawn me close and constantly draw me closer; and the closer you draw me the more I long for you.

As you have drawn me deep into your heart, nothing else matters to me. This world loses all its attraction as your glory enfolds me in all its brightness.

I will forever praise you and worship you, my God and King!

Psalm 139

This Psalm by David is one my favorite chapters in the Bible for it expresses the heart of one who is so caught up in the love of God and His awesome, infinite wisdom and omniscience.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalms%20139&version=KJV

139 O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.

Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.

Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether.

Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.

Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?

If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.

If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;

10 Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.

11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.

12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.

13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.

14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!

18 If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.

20 For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.

21 Do not I hate them, O Lord, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?

22 I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:

24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

 

Much love in Yeshua,

Cynthia